if only...

so a week after kate's murder...they have arrested someone...you would think somehow that makes it a little easier to accept...but it doesn't...and what is worse...is that it was a parolee...out of prison since april...where he was serving time for attempted murder of a women in fresno county...

am i glad they caught him? of course...but there are so many "if only" moments...and i know that we can't live our lives by "if only"...but it makes you wonder if by mere decisions...a different outcome would unfold...

like why would someone be let out in the streets? as if to taunt us...and for him to finish the act...the one he didn't complete on an attemted murder...now to be back in prison...not for attempted murder...but murder...

"if only" kate had stayed in argentina longer...
"if only" she had missed her flight
"if only" she had gone out that nite...
"if only" the secured building had not let in a man posing as a utility worker...

the "if only" will drive you crazy...and we can't go back and change what has happened...her death was senseless...as so many are...who understands the mind of a killer...who wakes up and decides...today is the day...to take a life...

we are not promised tomorrow...so don't wait till then to do the things you want to do...to say the things you need to say...to love the ones who are in your life...