trusting...

websters dictionary definition of trust:

: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something

: one in which confidence is placed

trust has been a big topic in my life as of late...whether in conversation...popping up over and over in reading the bible...devotionals...

the thing is...i can say i trust the Lord...but saying it and really doing it...well...sometimes...they are worlds apart...if i look at the definition in websters...there would be no one closer that i have assured reliance on...then the Lord...

then why the fear? why the worry? i say i trust...but how much do i really trust?

it is a daily struggle for me...or i should say...a daily discipline...to be in check with myself...am i trusting completely...or taking things into my own hands...sometimes i do the latter...without realizing...but it is clearly a step of not trusting...

i am thankful that the Lord understands us...our human-ness...our inability to be perfect...such as He is...

what i do know...is that when i am fully trusting...things always work out...always...perhaps not in the way i had hoped...or thought...but it somehow works out...and sometimes...that isn't apparent until way later...

so i rely on past times where i trusted...and even though in the present...seems like there is no answer...no way out...no understanding...He has proven himself to be reliable...each and very single time...and if i am going to put my trust in someone...an assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone...only God fits that perfectly...