the great thing about getting together with my girlfriends...is that it usually means a nite of much laughter...and deep discussion...one subject though...that i really could do without...is talking about not having someone in our lives...i guess for me...it could truly lead down a path of self doubt...and at times...depression...so am i in denial...because i don't want to talk about it?? i just figure...why focus on things that can't be fixed or changed? some of my friends differ in their opinions...but...that is what makes our friendships so beautiful...we are able to talk, discuss, agree & disagree...and still walk away loving each other that much more...
so...back to loneliness...
it's a constant battle to believe that God is all i need when i'm lonely...how can i be content when i long for that special someone...when i reach out and no one reaches back? can God hold my hand and embrace me after a long day? will it always be like this?
these are the thoughts that come & go with singles...and i think more so...the older we all get...
it takes time to discipline myself to seek God first before imperfect human relationships...i do know that God is with us wherever we are in our walk with Him...in our quest to understand our feelings and desires...God doesn't leave us physically alone when we are in need...He provides brothers and sisters to reach out to us and reciprocate that giving...
to work through my loneliness...i am learning that i have to be completely dependent on God...it is so natural for me to surround myself with friends and family who understand me and have been there...but i know if i get in a habit of depending on peers to bring peace...tackle my situations...or discern my feelings and emotions...i overlook God's reasoning and true undersatnding of the big, eternal picture...
i want the tangible things...the friends to give me a hug and tell me everything is going to be okay...and especially...a male companion who is concerned about my heart, my whereabouts, and my ability or inability to endure life's latest scenario...having those tangible things makes sense until someone disappoints me or falls short of what have become my secret expectations...imagine that! =) a human misses the boat...takes a neutral stance...or seems to lose some sensitivity...and my need for the Lord suddenly becomes very very clear...
my friends' desire to be there for me is not the problem...i'm the one who loses focus...how can i expect to find joy in any situation without first going to God to receive peace? He knows me better than i know myself...His word says He knows the desires of our hearts...the plans He has for us...but He wants us to trust in Him for fulfillment...for peace...and for His timing...He wants to be all we need...and i want Him to be my strength...my comforter...and my confidant...but i don't always know how to look up...stand tall...and walk boldly in Him...
i will never think it wrong to seek wise, godly counsel and encouragement from a caring friend...but the main purpose of this feedback should be to encourage one another in what God has for us...
i value my friendships now more that ever...i can't imagine what i would do without them...this has become even more apparent the older i have gotten...as i have been blindsided by the budding romances within my single friends...i am very happy for new couples getting together...but the last thing i want is my friend's new interest to hinder the frequency and quality of our conversations...
but...that is life...and i have learned that that is the risk one takes in becoming friends with other singles...but i won't lie...sometimes i still worry about losing those treasured friendships...
in God's eyes...though...this "you stole my friend" situation is another little elena trauma that i need not waste my time and energy worrying about...i need to rest in knowing that God will provide the necessary friendships and accountability at any given point of time in my life...i should be focusing on what God has for me now...God is perfect...He is never going to leave me alone...let me down...or dismiss my loneliness...He can take hold of me...calm my fears...and comfort my heart...i just have to be open to His desires and let Him...i guess i know what i need to do; it's just that "having faith and letting Him" part that i need to work on...
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
when loneliness hits...part 1
i once heard someone say in a sermon that loneliness is a gift...he explained that God sometimes places people in lonely times so that they can reach out to Him..so that they can make God their sole source of sustenance...
i have been wondering if God puts us into loneliness to teach us to reach out to Him..sounds sort of old testament job-like...i think loneliness is simply a circumstance that arises...i think that if i am lonely...i should realize it and turn it into "alone-with-God-time...
the times i feel lonely are usually the days whn i have nothing planned...i need people around...that is where i draw my energy...i need to share my life...i need to tell someone about my day and to ask how his or her day was...i need to connect with them emotionally...
the thing is...loneliness has nothing to do with singleness...loneliness visits everyone...married or single...we all need affirmation that we are loved and valued...when i feel lonely...i try to spend time with those i know love me...it's not the time for me to meet new people...i need to be with the people that are closest to me...
it makes me wonder if it is a sin to be lonely...if that means i am not reaching out to Him or am not wholly trusting Him with my future...i am trying to reach that perfect love relationship with God...i believe that this process is the very reason for my being....sometimes i drive out to a beach or park to study and pray...this is the time that i am trying to set aside...
i also use mornings for reading and praying...it seems like a better time (for me) to get on my knees and ask God to consecrate my day...
i don't fret loneliness on a day-to-day basis...i realize that i seldom have a sense of being lonely in the moment...i know that some people in my family worry about my singleness...sometimes the idea of a life ahead devoid of intimacy causes me to fret...i pray that God will always remind me of what is to come: i will soon be in heaven where i will reside in the arms of my Father...right now i must draw nigh to Him so that He will draw nigh to me...
how can we be truly lonely with the omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent Creator of the cosmos as our companion?
i'm not sure if i can entirely believe that it is a sin to be lonely...i think that my sin separates me from the love of God...therefore i am susceptible to loneliness...i should ever be exhaling a prayer to my Lord to keep me from sin...for then i will be entering that perfect love relationship that is as unknowing of loneliness as the sea is of arid land...
i have been wondering if God puts us into loneliness to teach us to reach out to Him..sounds sort of old testament job-like...i think loneliness is simply a circumstance that arises...i think that if i am lonely...i should realize it and turn it into "alone-with-God-time...
the times i feel lonely are usually the days whn i have nothing planned...i need people around...that is where i draw my energy...i need to share my life...i need to tell someone about my day and to ask how his or her day was...i need to connect with them emotionally...
the thing is...loneliness has nothing to do with singleness...loneliness visits everyone...married or single...we all need affirmation that we are loved and valued...when i feel lonely...i try to spend time with those i know love me...it's not the time for me to meet new people...i need to be with the people that are closest to me...
it makes me wonder if it is a sin to be lonely...if that means i am not reaching out to Him or am not wholly trusting Him with my future...i am trying to reach that perfect love relationship with God...i believe that this process is the very reason for my being....sometimes i drive out to a beach or park to study and pray...this is the time that i am trying to set aside...
i also use mornings for reading and praying...it seems like a better time (for me) to get on my knees and ask God to consecrate my day...
i don't fret loneliness on a day-to-day basis...i realize that i seldom have a sense of being lonely in the moment...i know that some people in my family worry about my singleness...sometimes the idea of a life ahead devoid of intimacy causes me to fret...i pray that God will always remind me of what is to come: i will soon be in heaven where i will reside in the arms of my Father...right now i must draw nigh to Him so that He will draw nigh to me...
how can we be truly lonely with the omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent Creator of the cosmos as our companion?
i'm not sure if i can entirely believe that it is a sin to be lonely...i think that my sin separates me from the love of God...therefore i am susceptible to loneliness...i should ever be exhaling a prayer to my Lord to keep me from sin...for then i will be entering that perfect love relationship that is as unknowing of loneliness as the sea is of arid land...
Monday, September 28, 2009
a good woman...
this was sent to me via email last week...a good reminder to us women...and to the women in our lives...i have to say...much of this i truly learned in the last two years...but i look at it as...i would rather learn it later in life...then never at all...i think when we stop learning...we stop living...
a good woman...
a good woman is proud of herself...
she respects herself and others...
she is aware of who she is...
she neither seeks definition from the person she is with,
nor does she expect them to read her mind...
she is quite capable of articulating her needs...
a good woman is hopeful...
she is strong enough to make all her dreams come true...
she knows love, therefore she gives love...
she recognizes that her love has great value
and must be reciprocated...
if her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears...
a good woman has a dash of inspiration,
a dabble of endurance...
she knows that she will, at times,
have to inspre others to reach the potential God gave them...
a good woman knows her past,
understands her present and moves toward the future...
a good woman knows God...
she knows that with God the world is her playground,
but without God she will just be played...
a good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past...
instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons,
meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love...
(author unknown)
Friday, September 25, 2009
meeting meg whitman...
adena, meg & me!i had the wonderful pleasure of meeting meg whitman this morning...what a lovely woman! but more than that...what a go-getter...she spoke eloquently about her focus...her vision...of a new california...
now please understand...i know that many politicians say what they need to say...do what they need to do...to be elected...for me...i guess...i like the idea of a non-politician running for office...someone who has worked...like the rest of us...who has lived like the rest of us...that excites me...
meg whitman has accomplished a lot more than most women...she is most known for being the president & ceo of ebay...when she started...the company had 30 employees and a little over $4 million in revenues...she was inspired by what she saw...a company dedicatd to helping millions of people reach their goals of launching and building their own businesses...in 10 years, meg grew the company to 15,000 employees and nearly $8 billion in revenue, with a network of 12 million users in california alone...
pretty impressive...i would say...
she has a heart for california...she has a heart to restore it to a healthy viable state...
i just like her spunk...her determination...and her focus...
and the fact that she is a very warm and endearing woman...
meg speaking to the group...
Thursday, September 24, 2009
one door closes...another opens...
One Door Closes..Another Opens
Revelations 3:8
When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go, only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly!
God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close...
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
peace & contentment...
when waves are crashing against you...it's often a real challenge even to think about being content...let alone being content in my singleness...when hard days come...that is when i most long for that someone to be there for me...
it doesn't always make me so comfortable...but when has God ever wanted me to be comfortable? too comforatable to look outside of my familiar surroundings and mind-set to see what He really has for me? He probably has not...i know God wants us to be moldable and shapeable...not stagnant and unchanged...
but God didn't say life would come without obstacles or temptations...at these times i am reminded of the passage in habakkuk:
"though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines...though the olive crop fail and the fields produce no food...though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls...yet i will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior" (3:17-18)
so the Lord wants me to rejoice in the painful moments...in the seasons that seemingly will never pass...and realize contentment in all circumstances...content with no clear path...content in my singleness...content in my gradually growing knowledge of scriptures...
the problem?
i must have been born of the fast-food industry mentality: i want everything, and i want it now...experience, knowledge, and wisdom...without enduring too many negative repercussions from my human choices... =)
fortunately, God's grace extends to the stubborn, wandering sheep that i am...wanting to test the waters first and to trust in Him second...i am so convicted as i come to Him in prayer...i need to give the Lord some credit here...He knows of my desire to learn and grow in accordance to His will and wants to be there for me...i need to learn to receive that grace...i am so aware of the power of prayer without ceasing...He is helping me put my life in perspective...and i'm realizing how i can't function without Him...in my seeking to know and understand Him...the Lord is showering me with that peace and contentment that only He can bring...
thank you Lord!
it doesn't always make me so comfortable...but when has God ever wanted me to be comfortable? too comforatable to look outside of my familiar surroundings and mind-set to see what He really has for me? He probably has not...i know God wants us to be moldable and shapeable...not stagnant and unchanged...
but God didn't say life would come without obstacles or temptations...at these times i am reminded of the passage in habakkuk:
"though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines...though the olive crop fail and the fields produce no food...though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls...yet i will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior" (3:17-18)
so the Lord wants me to rejoice in the painful moments...in the seasons that seemingly will never pass...and realize contentment in all circumstances...content with no clear path...content in my singleness...content in my gradually growing knowledge of scriptures...
the problem?
i must have been born of the fast-food industry mentality: i want everything, and i want it now...experience, knowledge, and wisdom...without enduring too many negative repercussions from my human choices... =)
fortunately, God's grace extends to the stubborn, wandering sheep that i am...wanting to test the waters first and to trust in Him second...i am so convicted as i come to Him in prayer...i need to give the Lord some credit here...He knows of my desire to learn and grow in accordance to His will and wants to be there for me...i need to learn to receive that grace...i am so aware of the power of prayer without ceasing...He is helping me put my life in perspective...and i'm realizing how i can't function without Him...in my seeking to know and understand Him...the Lord is showering me with that peace and contentment that only He can bring...
thank you Lord!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
only a Savior...
the words of this song speak for themselves...nothing more i could possible add...
only a Savior by Lisa Bevill...
I never thought I'd see the day
There'd be nothin' I could do or say
To make a way
If I could just keep tryin'
But somewhere on a dreamless night
I lost control with all my might
No hope in sight
And heaven heard me cryin'
Knowing I had nothing left
And I could not redeem myself
CHORUS:
When only a Savior
Could hold my broken heart together
He was reaching far enough
To take me in His arms
When only a Savior
Who loved me more than life could ever
Give me hope I never thought I'd find
Everything I needed was everything He gave
'Cause only a Savior could save
You tell yourself to take it slow
'Til you realize you're letting go
Of all you know
To cling to something better
And looking out from where I was
I began to see the God of love
Was strong enough
To carry me forever
How could I have been so blind
To ever trust these hands of mine
Save me from my weakness
When I thought that hope was lost
He offered mercy and forgiveness
As He carried my cross
CHORUS:
When only a Savior
Could hold my broken heart together
He was reaching far enough
To take me in His arms
When only a Savior
Who loved me more than life could ever
Give me hope I never thought I'd find
Everything I needed was everything He gave
'Cause only a Savior could save
only a Savior by Lisa Bevill...
I never thought I'd see the day
There'd be nothin' I could do or say
To make a way
If I could just keep tryin'
But somewhere on a dreamless night
I lost control with all my might
No hope in sight
And heaven heard me cryin'
Knowing I had nothing left
And I could not redeem myself
CHORUS:
When only a Savior
Could hold my broken heart together
He was reaching far enough
To take me in His arms
When only a Savior
Who loved me more than life could ever
Give me hope I never thought I'd find
Everything I needed was everything He gave
'Cause only a Savior could save
You tell yourself to take it slow
'Til you realize you're letting go
Of all you know
To cling to something better
And looking out from where I was
I began to see the God of love
Was strong enough
To carry me forever
How could I have been so blind
To ever trust these hands of mine
Save me from my weakness
When I thought that hope was lost
He offered mercy and forgiveness
As He carried my cross
CHORUS:
When only a Savior
Could hold my broken heart together
He was reaching far enough
To take me in His arms
When only a Savior
Who loved me more than life could ever
Give me hope I never thought I'd find
Everything I needed was everything He gave
'Cause only a Savior could save
Monday, September 21, 2009
the cousins soiree...
saturday nite my family had our annual cousins party...yep...just the cousins...no aunts & uncles...(other than my lovely aunt & uncle who hosted the soiree) which in reality...there are a lot of us =) i think we totaled 27 for the nite...and...this was only one side of the family...according to my calculations...if every cousin from this side of the family had been there...which of course would be great...but hard...because many are out of the country...we could have easily added over 20 more cousins...sigh...how cool is that??
one of the things that always makes me smile...is the "kids" table...of course...growing up...that was where my cousins & i were at...and our parents were at the "adult" table...now...the "kids" table is full of all the children that belong to my cousins...and there are a lot of them! lots of laughter & screaming & crying took place from the kids...but it was such a sight to see all of them playing together...just like my cousins & i had done when we were little...
as i drove home...i was overwhelmed with thankfulness to the Lord for giving me such an awesome family...it was beautiful to see tables full of cousins...laughing, reminiscing, catching up, teasing, hugging & loving each other...
there are many things i may not have...but my family...well i hit the jackpot!
one of the things that always makes me smile...is the "kids" table...of course...growing up...that was where my cousins & i were at...and our parents were at the "adult" table...now...the "kids" table is full of all the children that belong to my cousins...and there are a lot of them! lots of laughter & screaming & crying took place from the kids...but it was such a sight to see all of them playing together...just like my cousins & i had done when we were little...
as i drove home...i was overwhelmed with thankfulness to the Lord for giving me such an awesome family...it was beautiful to see tables full of cousins...laughing, reminiscing, catching up, teasing, hugging & loving each other...
there are many things i may not have...but my family...well i hit the jackpot!
Friday, September 18, 2009
He answers all prayers perfectly...
i had an interesting conversation with a friend about prayer...seems prayer has been on my mind a lot...
there was a time (now looking back...it makes me laugh...) i would start out by asking for something that i thought i needed...then i would resort to bribing...hinting that it was in His best interest to help me...then...if that failed..i would start bargaining...offering some specific act of obedience or sacrifice that would earn me His blessing...then...in desperation...i would beg...and then...when all else failed...i would throw a tantrum...
this system...i realized...had generated far fewer answers to my prayers than i had hoped for...now i understood that my prayers had been demonstrations of doubt...these ploys were the result of my lack of faith in His willingness to answer me based on the merits of my needs alone...i doubted that He was fair or even able...and i wasn't even sure if He was listening to me...all these doubts created a barrier between me and God...
what i know now...and understand...is that God not only hears our prayers...but He knows our needs well before we do...what i believe about God is that He has a vantage point we can never perceive...He sees into our eternal pasts and futures and knows our eternal needs...in His great love He answers prayers according to this eternal and omniscient perspective...
He answers all prayers perfectly...
hmmm...let me say that again...
He answers all prayers perfectly...
i also understand the importance of thanking God for the things we receive...gratitude is an eternal virtue...in humility we ask...and in gratitude we should receive...the more we thank God for the blessings we receive...the more we open the way for further blessings...His desire is to bless us full to overflowing...if we open our hearts and minds to receive His blessings...we too will be filled to overflowing...we will know that He lives...
there was a time (now looking back...it makes me laugh...) i would start out by asking for something that i thought i needed...then i would resort to bribing...hinting that it was in His best interest to help me...then...if that failed..i would start bargaining...offering some specific act of obedience or sacrifice that would earn me His blessing...then...in desperation...i would beg...and then...when all else failed...i would throw a tantrum...
this system...i realized...had generated far fewer answers to my prayers than i had hoped for...now i understood that my prayers had been demonstrations of doubt...these ploys were the result of my lack of faith in His willingness to answer me based on the merits of my needs alone...i doubted that He was fair or even able...and i wasn't even sure if He was listening to me...all these doubts created a barrier between me and God...
what i know now...and understand...is that God not only hears our prayers...but He knows our needs well before we do...what i believe about God is that He has a vantage point we can never perceive...He sees into our eternal pasts and futures and knows our eternal needs...in His great love He answers prayers according to this eternal and omniscient perspective...
He answers all prayers perfectly...
hmmm...let me say that again...
He answers all prayers perfectly...
i also understand the importance of thanking God for the things we receive...gratitude is an eternal virtue...in humility we ask...and in gratitude we should receive...the more we thank God for the blessings we receive...the more we open the way for further blessings...His desire is to bless us full to overflowing...if we open our hearts and minds to receive His blessings...we too will be filled to overflowing...we will know that He lives...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
fashion, champagne & a great cause...
hmmm...didn't think this through...i recently (like just this week) started my fashion blog...to be more in line with my business...guess i never thought about if i had a post that would work for both blogs...what to do...what to do...
so...i will just link to my other blog...
fashion, champagne and a great cause...
usually they will not be the same...so...for my faithful readers of this blog...feel free to follow me on the fashion one as well...really...i won't mind... =)
so...i will just link to my other blog...
fashion, champagne and a great cause...
usually they will not be the same...so...for my faithful readers of this blog...feel free to follow me on the fashion one as well...really...i won't mind... =)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
i believe...
i found a beautiful piece of artwork framed in black at the art & wine festival...
it is so simple...all glass...with this quote etched in black...
i believe in pink
i believe that laughing is the best calorie burner
i believe in kissing, kissing a lot
i believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong
i believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls
i believe that tomorrow is another day
and i believe in miracles...
by...none other that my fave girl...
audrey hepburn
i smile everytime i read it...
it is so simple...all glass...with this quote etched in black...
i believe in pink
i believe that laughing is the best calorie burner
i believe in kissing, kissing a lot
i believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong
i believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls
i believe that tomorrow is another day
and i believe in miracles...
by...none other that my fave girl...
audrey hepburn
i smile everytime i read it...
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
book signing with chip ingram...
saturday i had the lovely opportunity to go to a book signing by chip ingram...one of my favorite authors & speakers...any chance i get to listen to him on kfax...i do...he speaks so simply...but powerfully...all in one...it's a God thing...i don't try and explain it =)
chip was promoting a new book he had written...he spoke a little about what transpired it...and then there was a time for q & a...and then...well he was signing books...as i stood in line...i met his lovely daughter annie...who is an absolute doll...
when it was my turn to get my book signed...i handed him my tattered book entitled "i am with you always" obviously not the book he was promoting...but i explained to chip that this was the one book that i have read and re-read...and he smiled...i have met chip on a few occasions...and each time...it strikes me how humble he is...i think that is a big part of why his ministry is so successful...when he speaks...of struggles and triumphs...he is so relatable...so raw and honest...
as he signed my book...he ended it with matthew 28:20
"and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you...and surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age"
that evening my girlfriend and i attended his church...they were starting a 5 week series on "balancing life's demands" biblical priorities for busy people...
this first week was on the peace and power of a prioritized life...chip went over the six symptoms of misplaced priorities...talk about deep deep deep and arrow right to your heart talk...phew...
he left us with a few challenges...which i have already incorporated into my daily walk...and as if i'm surprised...those few little changes have already reaped changes...in just three days...
the circumstances haven't really changed...but my attitude and stress levels have...
no coincidence there...i love how God works...
looking forward to week two...
chip was promoting a new book he had written...he spoke a little about what transpired it...and then there was a time for q & a...and then...well he was signing books...as i stood in line...i met his lovely daughter annie...who is an absolute doll...
when it was my turn to get my book signed...i handed him my tattered book entitled "i am with you always" obviously not the book he was promoting...but i explained to chip that this was the one book that i have read and re-read...and he smiled...i have met chip on a few occasions...and each time...it strikes me how humble he is...i think that is a big part of why his ministry is so successful...when he speaks...of struggles and triumphs...he is so relatable...so raw and honest...
as he signed my book...he ended it with matthew 28:20
"and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you...and surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age"
that evening my girlfriend and i attended his church...they were starting a 5 week series on "balancing life's demands" biblical priorities for busy people...
this first week was on the peace and power of a prioritized life...chip went over the six symptoms of misplaced priorities...talk about deep deep deep and arrow right to your heart talk...phew...
he left us with a few challenges...which i have already incorporated into my daily walk...and as if i'm surprised...those few little changes have already reaped changes...in just three days...
the circumstances haven't really changed...but my attitude and stress levels have...
no coincidence there...i love how God works...
looking forward to week two...
Monday, September 14, 2009
taking chance...
recommended to me by a friend...i sat down this weekend to watch a movie entitled "taking chance" with kevin bacon...
i have to say...i thought i was prepared for the movie...i knew that it would be heart wrenching...but...i did not realize the profound affect it would have on me...
based on a true story...of a LT Col who volunteers for escort duty to bring the body of 19 yr old chance phelps home...dealing with his own conflict of being a desert storm veteran and deciding against another combat tour...due to having a wife and small children...this is LT Col mike strobl's week long journey accompanying phelps' body from a delaware military mortuary to burial in wyoming...
let me just say...it would probably be easier for me to name the scenes where i wasn't crying...
this is a moving emotional story that everyone needs to see...
i have to say...i thought i was prepared for the movie...i knew that it would be heart wrenching...but...i did not realize the profound affect it would have on me...
based on a true story...of a LT Col who volunteers for escort duty to bring the body of 19 yr old chance phelps home...dealing with his own conflict of being a desert storm veteran and deciding against another combat tour...due to having a wife and small children...this is LT Col mike strobl's week long journey accompanying phelps' body from a delaware military mortuary to burial in wyoming...
let me just say...it would probably be easier for me to name the scenes where i wasn't crying...
this is a moving emotional story that everyone needs to see...
Friday, September 11, 2009
8 years later...in remembrance...
remembering my friends today...those that perished and those that faced a really horrifying day in NYC as terror came to our shores...
here are links to my friend wendy brandes blog...from the eyes of someone who was there...
here are links to my friend wendy brandes blog...from the eyes of someone who was there...
and my post from last year...
Thursday, September 10, 2009
the tried and true...
there are times in life as i spin full force down various roads of discovery and adventure...i silence myself long enough to quit the energized activity i feel compelled to fill my life with...i do this intentionally to allow myself to live completely in the "now"...at these observing times i come to realize that in some instances the randomly old...the forgotten...often times even the discarded have a certain honest beauty to them...behind the dust, rust and ackward brokenness...shines a certain charm...an unpretentious regal quality that few fully perceive...
it is important that we honor the tried and true...that which has been reliable and served us well...even if they are a bit bedraggled and in need of some tender loving care...move on to the bright, new and shiny by all means...but never forget that which has brought us to the place where the bright and shiny is easily attainable...
i am not only speaking of material things...i am talking about old relationships...friends...and belief systems that in the past helped us grow...and become who we are today...
it is important that we honor the tried and true...that which has been reliable and served us well...even if they are a bit bedraggled and in need of some tender loving care...move on to the bright, new and shiny by all means...but never forget that which has brought us to the place where the bright and shiny is easily attainable...
i am not only speaking of material things...i am talking about old relationships...friends...and belief systems that in the past helped us grow...and become who we are today...
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
change of seasons...
with the change of seasons, we are reminded of the cyclical and ephemeral nature of life...something is present...then it slowly ceases to exist...and another thing comes about to take its place...nature abhors a vacuum...
from a macro perspective...this may be representative of a whole lifetime...a newborn being in the "spring" of her life...and elder being in the "winter" of his...but, on a much smaller scale...seasonal changes can be likened to various periods in our lives...within a lifetime...each of us will experience countless springs...numerous summers...many autumns...and several extremely long dark shivering winters...
we freely accept the necessity of transition in nature...but we are resistant to apply the same principle to our own lives...many of us tend to hold steadily onto the past...neglecting the possibility that something better might be up ahead...
a tree cannot hold onto its flowers and leaves for fear of losing its treasure...it simply lets go of them knowing that its full beauty will be restored...the same blossoms will not return...but ones that are just as...if not more beautiful than the originals...
everything comes full circle...
keeping this principle in mind should allow us to accept change more readily...embrace it...for change is equivalent to real living...anything less is merely existing...there is a vast difference between the two...welcome the seasons as they come as well as when they go...
on a personal note here...
i am in a lengthy season of so many changes...i will try to walk a delicate balance here...give you a true glimpse into my life without sounding like i am "whining"
the fight against a deep depression is not always easy nor valiant...this particular depression was brought on by the passing of some close friends...fighting some pain...financial situations...and a few people that i completely trusted in...to have them completely walk out of my life as if our friendship never mattered...at times trying to give from an empty cup...i have not been my usual self for a time...more inclined to pull into a shell and try to figure out how to get myself out of this "pickle"
so enough of all that...
for in my hurt and disappointment...i have realized who my true friends are...and i have learned to guard my heart and not to give so freely (something that is very very hard for me to do)...and in the changes of the seasons in my life...just as in nature...as i have let go of those that made me feel like i didn't matter...or chose to discard the friendship i so freely gave...in that letting go...i saw the treasure of my true friendships emerging...
to those who read this blog and are in the throes of trying to figure out life's seasons that are ever influx...i wish you "peace" of mind...i wish you gentle thoughts about yourself and those in your life who seem to be your own personal nemesis at the moment...look for happiness...encouragement...solice and the sweet things in life where ever they can be found...
from a macro perspective...this may be representative of a whole lifetime...a newborn being in the "spring" of her life...and elder being in the "winter" of his...but, on a much smaller scale...seasonal changes can be likened to various periods in our lives...within a lifetime...each of us will experience countless springs...numerous summers...many autumns...and several extremely long dark shivering winters...
we freely accept the necessity of transition in nature...but we are resistant to apply the same principle to our own lives...many of us tend to hold steadily onto the past...neglecting the possibility that something better might be up ahead...
a tree cannot hold onto its flowers and leaves for fear of losing its treasure...it simply lets go of them knowing that its full beauty will be restored...the same blossoms will not return...but ones that are just as...if not more beautiful than the originals...
everything comes full circle...
keeping this principle in mind should allow us to accept change more readily...embrace it...for change is equivalent to real living...anything less is merely existing...there is a vast difference between the two...welcome the seasons as they come as well as when they go...
on a personal note here...
i am in a lengthy season of so many changes...i will try to walk a delicate balance here...give you a true glimpse into my life without sounding like i am "whining"
the fight against a deep depression is not always easy nor valiant...this particular depression was brought on by the passing of some close friends...fighting some pain...financial situations...and a few people that i completely trusted in...to have them completely walk out of my life as if our friendship never mattered...at times trying to give from an empty cup...i have not been my usual self for a time...more inclined to pull into a shell and try to figure out how to get myself out of this "pickle"
so enough of all that...
for in my hurt and disappointment...i have realized who my true friends are...and i have learned to guard my heart and not to give so freely (something that is very very hard for me to do)...and in the changes of the seasons in my life...just as in nature...as i have let go of those that made me feel like i didn't matter...or chose to discard the friendship i so freely gave...in that letting go...i saw the treasure of my true friendships emerging...
to those who read this blog and are in the throes of trying to figure out life's seasons that are ever influx...i wish you "peace" of mind...i wish you gentle thoughts about yourself and those in your life who seem to be your own personal nemesis at the moment...look for happiness...encouragement...solice and the sweet things in life where ever they can be found...
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
the awakening...
A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst
of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and
somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a
child, quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to
subside. You shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and
through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through
new eyes. This is your AWAKENING.
You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something
to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping
over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not
Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world
there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter)
and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with YOU,
and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone
will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are. And
that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions and you
learn the importance of loving and championing yourself -- and in the
process, a sense of newly found confidence is born of self approval.
You stop criticizing and blaming other people for the things they did
to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you
can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't
always say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not everyone
will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So,
you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the
process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people
as they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties --
and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of
forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world
around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have
been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all
the nonsense you've been fed about how you should behave, how you
should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where
you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live,
what you should do for a living, who you should marry, what you should
expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children,
or what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and
different points of view.
And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you
really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and
needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've
outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with - and in the
process, you learn to go with your instincts.
You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive and that there is
power and glory in creating and contributing, and you stop maneuvering
through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You
learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the
outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together
the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save
the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to
distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of
setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only
cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get
burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to
love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk
away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings into a
relationship.
You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more
lovable or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the
child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as
they really are and not as you would have them be.
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn
that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. And you learn
that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms, just to
make you happy. And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you
will never be a size 8 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete
with the image inside your head and agonizing whether you make the grade
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside,
smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs. You learn that
feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. And that it is your right to
want things and to ask for the things that you want. And that
sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the
realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness,
sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less.
You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify
you with his or her touch and in the process, you internalize the
meaning of self-respect and you learn that your body really is your
temple.
You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and
fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the
body, laughter fuels our souls, so you take more time to laugh and to
play. You learn that for the most part, in life you get what you
believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling
prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working
for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from
working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need
direction, discipline, and perseverance. You also learn that no one
can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber
baron of all time - FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and
through your fears, because you know what whatever happens you can
handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live
life on your terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to
squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that
life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you
deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good
people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You
learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers.
It's just life happening.
And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - THE EGO.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment
must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out
of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit
when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn
to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we
take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can
only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft
warm bed, a long hot shower.
Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and
you try to make yourself a promise; to never betray yourself and to
never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a
wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you
make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to
every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand - you take a
deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best
as you can.
That is your and my AWAKENING!
~ author unknown
of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and
somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a
child, quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to
subside. You shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and
through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through
new eyes. This is your AWAKENING.
You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something
to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping
over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not
Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world
there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter)
and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with YOU,
and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone
will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are. And
that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions and you
learn the importance of loving and championing yourself -- and in the
process, a sense of newly found confidence is born of self approval.
You stop criticizing and blaming other people for the things they did
to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you
can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't
always say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not everyone
will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So,
you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the
process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people
as they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties --
and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of
forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world
around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have
been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all
the nonsense you've been fed about how you should behave, how you
should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where
you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live,
what you should do for a living, who you should marry, what you should
expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children,
or what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and
different points of view.
And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you
really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and
needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've
outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with - and in the
process, you learn to go with your instincts.
You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive and that there is
power and glory in creating and contributing, and you stop maneuvering
through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You
learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the
outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together
the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save
the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to
distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of
setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only
cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get
burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to
love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk
away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings into a
relationship.
You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more
lovable or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the
child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as
they really are and not as you would have them be.
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn
that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. And you learn
that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms, just to
make you happy. And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you
will never be a size 8 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete
with the image inside your head and agonizing whether you make the grade
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside,
smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs. You learn that
feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. And that it is your right to
want things and to ask for the things that you want. And that
sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the
realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness,
sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less.
You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify
you with his or her touch and in the process, you internalize the
meaning of self-respect and you learn that your body really is your
temple.
You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and
fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the
body, laughter fuels our souls, so you take more time to laugh and to
play. You learn that for the most part, in life you get what you
believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling
prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working
for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from
working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need
direction, discipline, and perseverance. You also learn that no one
can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber
baron of all time - FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and
through your fears, because you know what whatever happens you can
handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live
life on your terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to
squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that
life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you
deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good
people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You
learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers.
It's just life happening.
And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - THE EGO.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment
must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out
of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit
when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn
to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we
take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can
only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft
warm bed, a long hot shower.
Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and
you try to make yourself a promise; to never betray yourself and to
never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a
wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you
make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to
every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand - you take a
deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best
as you can.
That is your and my AWAKENING!
~ author unknown
Friday, September 4, 2009
He is with you...
so so love this song...i've had it on "repeat" many times...the words...the video...awesome!
may the words seep into your heart!
here are the words:
There’s a time to live and a time to die
There’s a time to laugh and a time to cry
There’s a time for war and a time for peace
There’s a hand to hold in the worst of these
In the worst of these
He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can’t even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn’t kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby’s gone
And your house is still, and your heart’s a stone
Cryin’ God, what’d You do that for
He is with you
There’s a time for yes and a time for no
There’s a time to be angry and a time to let it go
There is a time to run and a time to face it
There is love to see you through all of this
Through all of this
He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don’t know you anymore
He is with you in the I.C.U
When the doctors don’t know what to do
And it scares you to the core,
He is with you
We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light!!!
He is with you when your kids are grown
When there’s too much space and you feel alone
And you’re worried if you got it right or wrong
Yes, He is with you when you’ve given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you
When nothing else is left
And you take your final breath
He is with you
He is with you
may the words seep into your heart!
here are the words:
There’s a time to live and a time to die
There’s a time to laugh and a time to cry
There’s a time for war and a time for peace
There’s a hand to hold in the worst of these
In the worst of these
He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can’t even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn’t kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby’s gone
And your house is still, and your heart’s a stone
Cryin’ God, what’d You do that for
He is with you
There’s a time for yes and a time for no
There’s a time to be angry and a time to let it go
There is a time to run and a time to face it
There is love to see you through all of this
Through all of this
He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don’t know you anymore
He is with you in the I.C.U
When the doctors don’t know what to do
And it scares you to the core,
He is with you
We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light!!!
He is with you when your kids are grown
When there’s too much space and you feel alone
And you’re worried if you got it right or wrong
Yes, He is with you when you’ve given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you
When nothing else is left
And you take your final breath
He is with you
He is with you
Thursday, September 3, 2009
passing the holiness...
life is holy...our days, our hours, our minutes are holy, created by God according to His holy purpose...the bible begins with a beautiful, poetic account of how and what God created...He made a special place...He made it self-contained and filled it with His wonders...then He gave male and female dominion over it all...
God loved the world and all the creatures He put here...in fact, He loved it so much...He decided to come and dwell here...to walk among the people, to dwell in the countrysides and to visit the lakes and mountains...in Christ He reclaimed the world as a place of fulfillment and transcendence...God revealed Himself in the ordinary: He chose human life as His dwelling place...His presence and His purpose put us on holy ground...
so what does that mean to us?
God is with us...in the hubbub of our lives...God is with us...in the deadlines, in the splendor, in the singing of a bird, in the frustration of a broken relationship, in the sound of a little voice calling for mom, in the plumbing repair, in a friend's phone call...He is there in it all...He is present with us...He opens doors for us to love one another...for us to experience peace and beauty...He opens doors for us to enjoy life...to laugh...to find ourselves...and to experience His very holiness...to experience the abundant life...
and...there's more! God came into this world to summon us to commitment of making life holy for others...what God has done for you...you must now go and do for others...the lonely, the oppressed, the victims...all are waiting for us to live out our holiness...this is not to be confused with a casual twenty-dollar donation to a charity of our choice (although that is a good thing to do)...it is not the same as the clucking of our tongues when we read sad newspaper stories...it is not even a perfect attendance on the sunday school class roll...
making life holy for others requires imagination...sacrifice...courage...empathy...prayer...and perseverance..it is the commitment that does not ask "what's in it for me?" but rather, "if i don't help, what will happen to this life?"
there is no greater joy than bringing light to someone's darkness...there is no greater happiness and satisfaction than lightening someone's burden...there is nothing so holy as being a part of God's touching a broken spirit and creating a new beginning...there is nothing that increases our strength like sharing it with the weak...
life on earth is the dwelling place of the most holy God...if we are to experience the divine...we must find it in the ordinary walk of each day...we find God in the process of passing His holiness along...
God loved the world and all the creatures He put here...in fact, He loved it so much...He decided to come and dwell here...to walk among the people, to dwell in the countrysides and to visit the lakes and mountains...in Christ He reclaimed the world as a place of fulfillment and transcendence...God revealed Himself in the ordinary: He chose human life as His dwelling place...His presence and His purpose put us on holy ground...
so what does that mean to us?
God is with us...in the hubbub of our lives...God is with us...in the deadlines, in the splendor, in the singing of a bird, in the frustration of a broken relationship, in the sound of a little voice calling for mom, in the plumbing repair, in a friend's phone call...He is there in it all...He is present with us...He opens doors for us to love one another...for us to experience peace and beauty...He opens doors for us to enjoy life...to laugh...to find ourselves...and to experience His very holiness...to experience the abundant life...
and...there's more! God came into this world to summon us to commitment of making life holy for others...what God has done for you...you must now go and do for others...the lonely, the oppressed, the victims...all are waiting for us to live out our holiness...this is not to be confused with a casual twenty-dollar donation to a charity of our choice (although that is a good thing to do)...it is not the same as the clucking of our tongues when we read sad newspaper stories...it is not even a perfect attendance on the sunday school class roll...
making life holy for others requires imagination...sacrifice...courage...empathy...prayer...and perseverance..it is the commitment that does not ask "what's in it for me?" but rather, "if i don't help, what will happen to this life?"
there is no greater joy than bringing light to someone's darkness...there is no greater happiness and satisfaction than lightening someone's burden...there is nothing so holy as being a part of God's touching a broken spirit and creating a new beginning...there is nothing that increases our strength like sharing it with the weak...
life on earth is the dwelling place of the most holy God...if we are to experience the divine...we must find it in the ordinary walk of each day...we find God in the process of passing His holiness along...
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
my 5 minutes of fame..
my 5 minutes of fame...thanks to the lovely cherie...
http://shrimptoncouture.blogspot.com/2009/08/shrimpton-vintage-spot-elena.html
http://shrimptoncouture.blogspot.com/2009/08/shrimpton-vintage-spot-elena.html
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
screaming babies & barking puppies...
i love love love kids...but lately...i don't know why...anytime i am out...whether running errands or shopping...i will be in the aisle next to the screaming kid =) (even as i write it...i need to take a deep breath)
don't get me wrong...i know kids cry...i am not talking about the little annoyance cry...but the screaming at the top of your lungs crying...while the mother continues shopping...oblivious somehow to the noise...therein lies my pet peeve...i think there comes a point where the shopping needs to stop...and you need to pay attention to the child...is the child hungry? is the child tired? is the child needing some attention? whatever the case may be...it is not more important that shopping...i can't believe i just said something was more important than shopping...(just kidding!)
it has become a joke between my close friends...they know that i view shopping as therapuetic...so when in my solace...i am suddenly wanting to find new refuge...well...lately...every store i go to (i'm not exagerating here) whether it be clothing, grocery...the target...the post office...i seem to be next to the screaming child...ugh ugh ugh...
just when i thought it couldn't get any worse...today...after 4 hours sleep...my alarm clock loudly told me i must get up to make my flight to dallas...on my flight...already dilirious from lack of sleep...and not enough java...i had the wonderful pleasure of not only having a screaming baby behind me the whole flight...but a barking puppy in the aisle across from me...
breathe in...breathe out...
in these moments...there really is only one thing to do...get through them...i submersed myself in my september fashion magazines...and although the noise was all around me...i knew...this will pass...
and it did...and in looking at the day glass half full...i get to my hotel...only to be greeted by warm friendly people...and a room of pure luxury...a bedroom bigger than mine at home...a king size bed...did someone say siesta? a sitting area, an eating area & a nice big bathroom with a nice big bathtub...
looks like i will get some therapuetic time in today...afterall...
don't get me wrong...i know kids cry...i am not talking about the little annoyance cry...but the screaming at the top of your lungs crying...while the mother continues shopping...oblivious somehow to the noise...therein lies my pet peeve...i think there comes a point where the shopping needs to stop...and you need to pay attention to the child...is the child hungry? is the child tired? is the child needing some attention? whatever the case may be...it is not more important that shopping...i can't believe i just said something was more important than shopping...(just kidding!)
it has become a joke between my close friends...they know that i view shopping as therapuetic...so when in my solace...i am suddenly wanting to find new refuge...well...lately...every store i go to (i'm not exagerating here) whether it be clothing, grocery...the target...the post office...i seem to be next to the screaming child...ugh ugh ugh...
just when i thought it couldn't get any worse...today...after 4 hours sleep...my alarm clock loudly told me i must get up to make my flight to dallas...on my flight...already dilirious from lack of sleep...and not enough java...i had the wonderful pleasure of not only having a screaming baby behind me the whole flight...but a barking puppy in the aisle across from me...
breathe in...breathe out...
in these moments...there really is only one thing to do...get through them...i submersed myself in my september fashion magazines...and although the noise was all around me...i knew...this will pass...
and it did...and in looking at the day glass half full...i get to my hotel...only to be greeted by warm friendly people...and a room of pure luxury...a bedroom bigger than mine at home...a king size bed...did someone say siesta? a sitting area, an eating area & a nice big bathroom with a nice big bathtub...
looks like i will get some therapuetic time in today...afterall...
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